So I started seeing Hannah for yoga roughly 6 months ago when I was feeling broken suffering with anxiety and low mood, practically housebound. After weekly practices with Hannah where I get so much more than just yoga, I began feeling what I can only describe as normal but better than normal because I was finally feeling inner peace.
During our sessions we usually spend most of it chatting away about everything and anything and we somehow came onto the topic of reiki something that has always intrigued me, Hannah had a friend who was also a reiki master and was holding a reiki level 1 course in the following months so Hannah asked me if I wanted to go with her as it was something she knew I was interested in. I can tell you now that I was absolutely petrified on the day because I know very little about chakras and living a spiritual life but thanks to my yoga/breathing work I was able to get through the anxiety and go to the course with Hannah and I am so thankful I did.
Our reiki master was fabulous with an amazing energy around her and a fabulous teaching style. We did some self healing which I loved because I could actually feel the heat in my hands and if I’m honest I didn’t think I would be able to, maybe I wasn’t spiritual enough? or good enough? but there I was feeling the heat and warmth in my hands and chakras, I was fascinated!
Then we moved on to healing each other, which I found hard because I naturally suffer with anxiety and self doubt so found it hard to let go and trust my intuition.
So it was my turn to lag on the table and have some healing, now in the previous months during yoga when my body relaxes I sometimes develop this choking cough which makes you feel as though you can’t breathe, and just as it’s my turn to lay down the choking started, to say I was embarrassed was an understatement………
I’m laying down and could feel Hannah on my throat chakra which obviously has a big blockage because I have always suppressed everything since I was a child, anyway I could feel the heat from her hands as if my throat was tingling and I was coughing to the point of choking then because I was coughing so badly Hannah would release her hands slightly and I could breathe a little and we kept doing this hands down I’ll choke hands up I can breathe routine for a couple of minutes and towards the end I felt this urge to cry, absolutely no idea why, I just felt I wanted to cry my heart out and this is all going on in my head whilst trying to breathe through the choking (sounds very traumatic i know!) so I’m holding back the tears when I hear Hannah gasp and I can hear her sobbing and I genuinely didn’t know what to do I felt so guilty this must be my fault, but then I noticed I could breathe?? I wasn’t coughing or choking anymore! I know most people will think ‘yeah ok’ as if that could ever happen because I also can be very skeptical and I probably wouldn’t have believed it had i not felt what happened myself. Naturally I worried I had infected her with my anxiety or sadness but Hannah assured me she didn’t feel sad she just felt it flow through her so I trusted she was ok.
So we left the day feeling elated and exhausted! I suffered a healing crisis after most likely because my chakras are so out of balance, I had anxiety the day after which was only there for 1 day, also had sinus pain and low energies which lasted about a week on and off, so I carried on with my self healing as instructed doing my weekly yoga, also had a 1:1 session with our reiki master to ground me a little through the healing crisis and I can honestly say I am such a different person, I’m definitely not perfect but that’s ok with me now!
I’ve gone from being the type of person who will do anything to avoid feelings begging doctors to prescribe me any and every pill to make me feel ‘better’ to the me now who relies on myself to deal with life using reiki,yoga and meditation to live an authentic life. I could go on and on about all the benefits I feel from reiki and the way it has helped me change but everyone has such different experiences and will feel very different things. I think for now I’m happy staying at level 1 and just using my reiki to self heal and occasionally practice on my dogs (which they love!) because it’s what I need right now, but you could tell from the get go it wouldn’t be long before Hannah was doing the level 2 as she has a natural gift for helping others. I believe yoga found me at the right time which then led reiki to find me, had I not have met Hannah I never would have done the course and been able to feel how I feel today, funny how the universe has a way of giving you what you need when you need it!- Nicole Sinnott